Earworms

Off late I have been suffering heavily from earworms. It might sound like a gross disease involving something like say, tapeworms in your ears. It isn't. It is that state of mind when a song gets stuck in your mind and refuses to go away for hours, days and some times even weeks. Luckily for me, my earworms last only for a day or two at most. However, the what is intriguing is the underlying theme of the songs - early 90s Alternative/Grunge with lyrics of that form a very deep emotional connection with me. I wonder if that is a sign. I only managed to recover from Pearl Jam classics Black and Alive recently. The current earworm, Losing My Religion by REM nearly reduced me to tears couple of days ago. I remember identifying with the lyrics at least 6-7 years ago. That reason no longer exists. When I listen to it now, it reminds me of something entirely new and shocking. I hope that passes on as quickly as possible. Yikes! That scares me. It makes me feel extremely guilty. But I think I can deal with it, like I have in the past, with similar experiences of lesser severity. The last lines of the lyrics seem slightly conforting, at least from an escapist's point of view.

Losing My Religion - By REM

Oh, life is bigger, It's bigger than you, And you are not me.

The lengths that I will go to, The distance in your eyes.

Oh no, I've said too much. I set it up.

That's me in the corner.

That's me in the spotlight, Losing my religion.

Trying to keep up with you, and I don't know if I can do it.

Oh no, I've said too much.

I haven't said enough.

I thought that I heard you laughing.

I thought that I heard you sing.

I think I thought I saw you try.

Every whisper of every waking hour I'm choosing my confessions.

Trying to keep an eye on you, like a hurt lost and blinded fool, fool,

Oh no, I've said too much. I set it up.

Consider this, Consider this.

The hint of the century.

Consider this, The slip that brought me to my knees failed.

What if all these fantasies come flailing around.

Now I've said too much.

I thought that I heard you laughing.

I thought that I heard you sing.

I think I thought I saw you try.

But that was just a dream. That was just a dream.

That's me in the corner.

That's me in the spotlight, Losing my religion.

Trying to keep up with you, and I don't know if I can do it.

Oh no, I've said too much.

I haven't said enough.

I thought that I heard you laughing.

I thought that I heard you sing.

I think I thought I saw you try.

But that was just a dream.

Try, cry, why try?

That was just a dream.

Just a dream, just a dream.